Letter 27

Hi Dad!
How are you? First letter in 2010. I'm so sorry I haven't written in so long. But now I actually have a lot to say!
So first of all, I'm supposed to be studying for a project. I have to analyze a text of Emile Zola's Therese Raquin. I hated the book.... well okay not really hated but it disturbed me. And as bad as I used to be in French now I'm one of the best in my class. I'm getting great grades that last year I would dream of having in french. I guess that I didn't give it a chance to try it out. But now when i have to read and find what the author really meant when he wrote his novel, it's just fascinating. I hope one day I'll publish a book of my own.
OH! i forgot to mention that i got qualified to participate in MUN (Model United Nations) it's a simulation of the United Nations that aims to educate. We take on roles as diplomats, investigate international issues, debate, deliberate, consult, and then develop solutions to world problems (Malaria and other diseases, the environment, the economy, etc..). I went to my first meeting and all and it was great. in my class we were about 60 people my age. When the teacher asked questions some people make you feel so stupid. it's like they studied for it and know everything by heart while you sit there and bow your head so that the teacher doesn't pick you to answer the question. For me, everything we talked about was totally new for me. But it was cool. Though something did disappoint me a lot. They told us that everything will be in english but there is barely a handful of people in my class that can actually structure a simple phrase in English. But they did come to lean right? There is an Ukrainian, a Russian, and two Saudi in my class those are the only foreigners. But it's cool i liked it a lot. Well i still can't say cause i've only been to one meeting. The next one is in 21 days. Yes I'm counting. Hehe. In total there are 7 meetings. And i can't wait!
Yesterday i saw the best movie ever! Avatar. It's amazing! James Cameron is the director, he did Titanic too. He's been working on Avatar since 1994 (the year i was born hehe such an honor! I'm just kidding). 15 years! that's dedication to his work. he said, "Technology needed to catch up." Imagine that! waiting 15 years of waiting for technology to evolve. The graphics are AMAZING!! And the world he created is brilliant. the creatures that he created are amazing. And it's like stuck in my head! i can't stop thinking about it! It's like WOAH! AND THE LANGUAGE! he created a hole language! it's like now heavy and it's not inspired by anything it's completely invented. And the Na'vi people (a race of indigenous humanoids or simply the blue people) are so good looking! And have hot bodies (what dad?! I'm a hormonal teen-aged girl! haha!) I want an Avatar and i want to go to Pandora. He hit $1 BILLION within three weeks of it release! Is that even possible? Here in Lebanon i actually had to reserve my tickets two days in advance? okay you probably have the illusion that I'm obsessed hehe. So I'm not gonna spoil anything for you (in case you wanna watch it... Do you have movies where ever you are?) A
Anyway, i love you my dearest daddy!
I miss you so much!
More that $1 Billion worth of kisses..
Your daughter that love you so much.

2010

Happy New Year Dad...

Letter 3

Hello Dad!
How are are? I miss you. What was it like at the end? It really a mystery because when a heart stops that's not the end. Many hearts beats again but when you breathe you're last and final breath and your heart beats for the final time i think that's the end. The scary thing about it is that the many generations that existed since the beginning of everything: plants, trees, bacteria, animals, mammals, fish till the human. No one knows what's to come after death. Some people claimed to have seen heaven's golden gate or the "light". But when you think about it more it's just plain weird. People nowadays believe whatever you tell them. It's just pathetic. Don't you agree? Personally i think it's just bullshit. They just want to be sure that after they're done with this life a place in heaven is saved for them. Well not i thing I'm just talking as much crap as they are! Ha-ha. I miss your laugh dad it's been so long since i've heard it. You know what i miss so much? Apart from your hole being but the 8 P.M called you regularly made every night. And the hug that i used to get at midnight when you would arrive to lebanon after a month of being away. Or your snoring! it used to be my lullaby. I wish i had more time with you like Hadi and Aya. Well i have to go and study!
Lot's Of Love!
Kisses and hugs a plenty!
Your Dearest daughter.

Letter 2

Hi Dad!
So how's it doing?
So this summer was great everyone flew in and we finally saw...well met the Youneses and they're so cool i love them! Haha but there was one problem amongst others and its starting to got on my last nerves. Nina, well we all know about her character but this summer it went too far. We hardly ever saw the Chaftaries except kenny she's great at least she made an effort but Gabi Dominique i don't recall seeing them at all. And then there is Nina. Dad, what does nina hold against mum? There's something wrong. Since the beginning of summer till now, october they don't stand each other. Nina just doesn't want Cola in her life and mum just fed up of eating all the bullshit that Nina causes. Since then there's been insults bad words tears and shouts. I just don't meddle with it but that doesn't mean I'm not present no on the contrary I'm just choked and analyzing without interfering. But no i can't take it any longer. Lynno can't call Nina on moms cellphone because Nina won't answer to anything involving Cola. Isn't that childish and immature? Instead of trying to fix the problem like gown and civilized adults they act like like kids.
But don't get me wrong my summer was amazing! I had a blast and i met so many new people.

Miss you more with each passing day...
You daughter that loves you.
XoXo

Letter 1

Hi Dad!
How are you doing? Things are different around here since you left. Mum and me are having more fights but i think its just normal teenage behavior. Once when Marianne was in Lebanon she pointed out that since your departure our family is closer and stronger. And that you were the one behind it. I actually agree, see when you died, everyone was broken and wasn't sure how to react to the situation. I got lost thinking that i should be strong and not look weak around people around me but it turns out that all i had done was destroy all sanity left in me my keeping it in. Then came Lyne. My wise cousin once said: "Crying is like pissing you always feel better afterwards". So after a few day i just broke down and drowned in my own tears for a while then when i looked up i saw that i wasn't by myself but surrounded by people that love and care for me. So you don't need to worry about me. I think that i have everyone i need by my side.
Anyhow how are you? Actually the real question is: Where are you? Are you a ghost roaming the house and following us around? or are you a mystic tree in the amazon? Or maybe a baby in Japan... That's what scares me. Not death but the unknown that follows after it. Do we say frozen in place? Or in a infinite dark room with no walls, roofs or flours? Do you have music here you are? because that will be my main problem if i die because i don't think I'll survive without it. Wait... survive is definitely not the word for it.. then I'll loose my mind without it. I think you would too....

It's getting late and i have school tomorrow.
I love you always and forever
I miss you deeply, kisses

Yours truly
Symzette