Letter 72

Hi Dad!

How are you? I’ve been better. Now it’s sinking in. The friends whom I thought were really there for actually were just figurines, illusions. I think what hurts me the most, is the fact that I still hoped, right to the end that they cared about me enough to make an effort to patch things up again.

I sort of makes me doubt friendship. At least I know and from a long time ago that it doesn’t last. And I learned that you shouldn't trust or give too much to a person. That way you don’t get hurt. Out of all the friends I had a fallout with, I think this time was the most painful. But it’s for the best. At least I witnessed the complete face of the people that I called my best friends. So that's amazing closure. I can swallow the whole thing much better knowing who they really were.

Anyway, I love you pap.

I miss you so much.

Symzette

Xx

PS: I dyed streaks pink, like I did in summer 2 years ago but it's more discreet seeing that my school does not approve. But so far they didn’t tell me anything… yet.

Letter 71

Hi Dad! how are you? I’m at school now, we were supposed to present our project but the teachers bailed… Ironic right? So now we’re hanging out. I have a history test the next period.. I’m starting to stress a bit… The teacher has it in or me for some reason… She hates me and I think today at lunch I made it worse.
So I was talking to my friend about our report card (btw my grades are pretty good) and I was telling her how all my grades were above the average except in History and my excuse was ïnno c’est Mme Kik!”And guess who was right next to me? Yup you got it.
But seriously the next time she uses me to let out all of her frustrations, I’m going to talk to her because, I really can’t take anymore of her crap. So I’m going to stand up for myself… Yes I’m quite the revolutionary…
Anyways, I love you so much!
Many many kisses
xxx

letter 70

Hi Dad!
How are you? I miss you so much! Pap my friends threw me a surprise party yesterday night! it was amazing! I had now idea!
So that night I was supposed to go to have dinner with Fleur at ABC at 8. So Lynno said that she would drop me and have a drink with her friends while waiting for me. So before going to Ashrafiyeh, we stop to a dekken to get chips. Then we continue down to Mkalles. At that point,  mum calls to tell Lynno that fleur “cancelled” her dinner. So we drive back up to Broumana and on the way we stopped by the DVD shop. Then Lynno said she wanted kebbeh la2teen to we drove (for the second time) to Gout Frais. But Gout Frais was closed then Lynno wanted Falefel but then out of the blue she bailed and we drove back home. We arrived and I was trying to cheer up lynno by saying that we were going to watch movies all night right? So I look at the salon and see on the table 3 candles and a bowl of nuts. My first thought was,”ok… mum wants to kanken while watching the movies”and I turn in the salon and “SURPRISE!”I see around 25 people standing near the dining table at the end of the salon.
It was great! And I had fun until everyone left at around past two.
It was really amazing I had tons of fun.
I wish you were there…
Many kisses
I love to the point that the whole universe does not compare to it’s vastness.
Xxx

Letter 69

Hi Dad!

How are you? I miss you so much.
I sometimes don’t understand the people around me. How can someone so close to you one day and be so bitter the next? And since when does friendship have an expiry date or an on/off button?
It’s just illogical to turn to someone close to you and say, “I’m bored” and ignore you the next few months and treat you like s**t (at least I censored… :P). But I did try to see what the problem was and I really offered to apologize to anything I had done, whatever it was. Because I’m not perfect, no one is. But what is it that I did to deserve this kind of treatment? At least let they have the decency to reply or give me a valid reason. But after all this time of waiting, I don’t think I would apologize to anything anymore really... Where they even my friend to begin with? To end our friendship so abruptly for no particular reason is so strange…
Anyway, I hope you’re okay…
I love you always
Many trillion kisses
xoxo

Letter 68

Hi Dad!

How are you? I’m not bad. So as usual, Lebanon’s without a government. I’m the worst person who could possibly try to explain it to you. I have really no clue what exactly is going on except that we’re possibly on the brim of having another war. That’s that for Lebanon’s political situation.

On to more interesting events: Nicole came yesterday for lunch with Teta and Zoya (Nicole’s new kitten). They came and we ate raclette!!!!! After 7 years of asking mum we finally found the machine and we are with Parma ham and meat. It was nice.

Rasha’s coming supposedly after tomorrow for an exhibition. It depends on the situation. So I’m pretty excited about that.

Gia is still AWOL. I’m really worried about her. And I miss her terribly.

I love you dad

I miss you so much

Many many kisses.

Syma

Letter 67

Hi Dad!
How are you? I miss you so much. I hope you're doing fine. It's 2011 and already I feel somewhat guilty. Papi I miss her so much you cannot believe how much I miss her pap. I feel so bad to have left her like I did. And for what? I'm sure she thinks I abandoned her and I don't care about her but I want her back. And I can't accept the fact that she's gone. I miss her so much. Why did I have to get so attached? It's not fair that I have to part with her like that. I could have done something other than abandon her. Now she's not here anymore. My baby isn't here anymore. No offense or anything but I really don't want her to be with you right now. I love you and all but I still need to make amends to the sucky kittenhood she had. But how could she survive outside? For 11 yrs we've fed her and gave her a warm home. But now she's left to fend for herself in the cold against things she's terrified of (mostly because of me) I really would do anything to just know at least what happened. Why isn't she down there like the last two times? Mrs. Houdini is now REALLY gone. Dad if she's out there could you keep an eye on her for me? Please? It hurts dad, so much. Why do I have to go through this again? What did I ever do to anyone?
I still miss you extremely pap
And I still love you comme ca
Your Syma that wishes you were here too...

Letter 66

Hi Dad!

How are you? And I’m so glad we’re here finally. It’s great to be with the family again. Tonight’s the big dinner as usual and for some reason I’m really excited. Apparently there are more people my age that are coming apart from the two friends I’ve already made. So it’s going to be cool.

This year Nicole and Julien came with us and Eddy joined us too. So did Maha, Rasha’s friend from London. She’s great. It’s amazing and I already I don’t want to leave. As usual the schools cut the vacation too short: From the 21^st to the 2^nd. It’s extremely annoying. But I don’t have much homework so that’s a major plus.

We already went to the beach. Pap did you know about Dr. Fish? It’s the most genius thing ever. You now the fish that stay around the hippopotamus and feeds on its dead skin? Yeah? So they have a place here called Dr. Fish where you sit and dip you feet in a aquarium and these fish eat allllllll your dead skin. I tried and put only one finger first but the fish didn’t react I tried another and whoosh they attached it. It doesn’t hurt. But it has a sort of nibble or tickling feeling. The idea of the fish actually eating me freaked me out. And I can’t wait to try it again.

As for the week before coming to Muscat, nothing much happened. I had my exams and I did well. The last day, I finished my exam at 9:30 and at 9:35, Claudia, Maylis and me were already in the taxi heading to Nahr-Ibrahim. We picked-up along the way Bettina and we went to the school. It’s extremely far from my school and it took us an hour to get there. But anyway I had my first concert there and it was fantastic the feeling on stage was great. I sung Zombie by the Cranberries first in the sound check a people responded pretty well. Then we ended up playing one son g instead of two. We played Seven Nation Army by The White Stripes. And it was nerve wracking during the whole song I was so scared to mess up but thank the good lord I didn’t and I actually had a lot of fun. The crowd was huge… Well it was a school thing. But I did feel a bit of an outsider. We were the only ones who didn’t actually go to the school so we did get a few looks here and there. But its fine, our friends were great. Later on we passed by pizza hut got a few pizzas and went to my friends house in Harisa. We stayed there till 9:30. We played piano and guitar, played music and tried to write a song. We had a blast.

Anyway, I’ll tell you all about the Christmas dinner tomorrow .

And I really wish you were here. You would make this vacation a whole lot better.

I send you a thousand kisses and many tight hugs.

Love

Your Symzette